Showing posts with label emoish. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emoish. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Remembering my Father on his Birthday


I am sharing here the lyrics of a song that reminds me of my father:

"Dance With My Father"


Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream


My father passed away thirty-three years ago. I was just an eleven year-old dreamy eyed girl then. The feeling way back then til now stays the same . . . I still miss him . . . but am thankful for having him as my guardian angel!

Happy birthday, pa! Your little girl is now a woman . . . a woman who never forgets that she's got a father who cares, who guides her all the way . . .

note: image from iclipart

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Tears in Heaven and perhaps Laughters

picture source: photobucket

Exactly nine days from now will be the 1st death anniversary of my dear brother. His untimely demise taught me basically a lot of things. I came to realize that time is indeed so fleeting and that we are just transients in this world. That is why we should always find time to spend quality moments with people close to our hearts for we just don't know how long this privilege will last.

I am sharing with you lyrics of my brother's favorite song. A song by Eric Clapton and it was sung by my brother's best friend before we laid him to his final rest. For several months, listening to this song would always mean tears streaming down my eyes as well but thanks God when I heard it this morning - the feeling of emptiness is no longer there.

I take it is a sign for us to move on and continue dwelling on the thought that my brother is already resting peacefully and now sharing laughters with our dear parents up, up there!

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please, begging please

Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

Goodbye, dear bro! Missing you a lot . . . .

Friday, August 26, 2011

My T4th Birthday

I celebrated my ___4th birthday yesterday. It was a day with lots of realization for me.

I left my previous age with several heartbreaking events and several worth remembering dates.

  • I started my day yesterday with a solemn prayer inside the Our Lady of Peace and Good Voyage Parish church.
  • As usual, a busy day in the Office but still I had the chance to do some reflections.
I have been telling everybody that I have moved on after what had happened to my brother,Allan, and a dear cousin, Alice. Truth of the matter is I haven't yet. My heart is still broken and I still have once in a while that empty feeling inside of me.

But the outpouring love and concern I received yesterday made me realize that there is no reason for me to be still living in a bad dream. Many people care for me and they do deserve to be taken cared of also. You are worth my while and for the times I have forgotten you, my apology.

My day ended with a prayer of thanksgiving and praise to our Lord almighty for the infinite love and all the graces he has bestowed on me.

To you, my friends and loved ones, you are the reason why I have this very thankful heart now. I am moving on, definitely, because of you....
thank you very much!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

A Race with Alcris


I had a great time with Alcris, the young son of my late brother Allan, last Sunday morning. We found a nice place to jog on. It was on top of mounds of sands inside the resort premises.
I've been missing my brother a lot and the quality time I had with his son somehow compensated for the longing in my heart. . .
small steps racing. . .

am ahead of you . . . eat my dust :-D

the winners!

gratifying feeling. . .
feeling of contentment and peace abound. . . .

Miss you, dear bro!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Life Changing Decision


facing difficult life situations. . .
often seem too hard to handle. . .
our deliberate actions. . .
will test our mettle. . .
on how tough we are when it comes to life changing decisions. . .

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Moving On. . . . Moving Out. . . Moving In. . . .

am still keeping mum about my plans for the moment. . . .but I want to take this opportunity to thank all of you, dear readers, who kept on coming back to this blog even if I'm wordless . . . . am just keeping my pace and hopefully will be back to blogging in due time or maybe soonest.....

from my heart, Thank You
!


Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Breaking Silence, Mending Broken Hearts


I am now breaking my silence in the blogosphere. I hope through this, my drive to write and rant could help in the healing process me and my sister are enduring right now.

We know we are imperfect. That's why we feel that our hearts have been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one? But broken hearts gave us the will and strength to carry on with the daily routines of our lives. Of course, keeping the faith did helped a lot! The overwhelming understanding and compassion we got when we were grieving affirmed the belief that everything happened for a reason and purpose.

We came to the realization that a heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect. Imperfections that showed us who we really are and who truly cared for us. For this, our hearts will forever be thankful to all of you and the One up there who is with us during our struggle.

Thank you, dear friends! we could not have gone this far without you. . .

Sunday, January 9, 2011

STOP AND SMELL THE FLOWERS FOR NOW. . . .

Apologies for my silence the past few days. I chose to be wordless to somehow ease the pain. Meanwhile, allow me to stop and smell the flowers for now. . . so long, my friends!

Monday, December 6, 2010

I Dreamt of Tulips

exhausting weeks
tiring trips
longing moments
are all gone

like tulips
blue skies
clear waters
now streams in my mind

how I wish
all days are like this
free from stress
we can daydream of tulips!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Of Roads and Crossroads

an early morning aerial view of Davao City as captured by the author

for three weeks I was away
there was not a single day
I stopped thinking of my family
while trying not to be lonely

I have seen roads while I travel
appreciated the beauty they unravel
there were less traveled roads
as much as there were dreaded crossroads

roads can be likened to our lives
living life to the fullest thrives
crossroads are inevitable in life
glaring in chaos and strifes

roads and crossroads for always
bring us to people and places
we long to see, connect and reach
something to be thankful of and appreciate!




Thursday, July 29, 2010

Am I Going Too Fast?

This text message of my friend, Viki, made my day. I wish to share it with you my dear friends.

When trouble overtakes you, let God take over.

Prayer is the bridge between panic and peace.

Trust god to move your mountain, but keep on climbing!

nice one, isn't it? :-)

Friday, July 16, 2010

Moing Out? Not Yet!

It has been weeks since I had my last post on this blog. Not that I don't have time to blog, it's just that I don't feel like doing one. I don't know what triggered this laziness (?) on my part but am hoping this will be over soon. . . .

To somehow wake up the sleeping dragon in me, I decided to start on a new blog designed for a special topic. I hope this wakes me up and inspires to once again, blog and blog. . .

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

A Whooping Two Weeks of My Life!

It has been two weeks since I posted an article on this blog. It's been two weeks also since our 18th wedding anniversary and the idea of spending a night in a cozy restaurant with my husband has not been materialized yet. Wheeeew! Indeed, these two weeks has been a roller coaster ride of emotions and all for me. One thing, I missed also during this hiatus is of course, blogging!

Barely hours before my hubby's D day, I was at Marco Polo Hotel in Davao City for official business reasons. The experience was something because I was again able to meet a big boss from Manila and it has became a sort of catching up with some good old friends too from the Office where I formerly belonged.

Upon returning to beloved Gensan, the author had the pleasure of being a part of the team who facilitated the 10-day Basic Safety Training for our displaced fishermen. It has been fulfilling on my part even if it meant lesser precious time with my hubby and kids. Even then, I had no regrets because I know what we did was something that gave a glimmer of hope in finding a new job/opportunity for our workers who lost their jobs because of the ongoing fish ban. The activity also enabled me to gain new friends and having the chance of learning a lesson or two from all of them.
After the BST, I was occupied with the needs of my kids for the opening of classes. After almost exhausting all my energy, a very sad event suddenly occurred. My kids pet "Yin Yin" died and the cries and bewailing of my children when we buried Yinyin made my heart bleed.

Another heartbreaking thing happened and this time, I felt numbness all over my body. A cousin left us to join our Creator. Tears flowed, heartbreaks abound, longing feeling engulfed us all. . . But I know everything happened for a reason, reasons we can't fathom as of this very moment..

Yesterday, I woke up with a smile on my face as I saw my basil plants starting to sprout with healthy leaves!

Also yesterday, I stood as witness as two persons very dear to me said their I dos before God. We made it through the event if we're grieving and I thank God for this! Now I realize even more, to feel true happiness. . . excruciating pain or more must be felt also. . .

So many exciting stories waiting to be told...and I thank you dear readers for staying with me through this whooping two weeks of my life. . .

I'll make it up to you asap!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Am Moving On. . .




My life has been in turmoil these past few day. Perplexed feelings gobbled me up. Good thing that there are friends and loved ones who did not let me down during this troublesome time. People who unselfishly gave their best efforts to cheer me up. Thank you, guys!

The emptiness may still be here but I am optimistic this will be over soon. Life has to return to normal and this can be done only by moving on and restoring the cheerful outlook I used to have. . .

All things happen for a reason. Reasons beyond our control. We are not in position to question everything that had happened, is happening and about to happen.

What's important, we are always ready for anything and thankful for everything! Life has to go on. . . we have to move on. . . hang on and for always. . . take small steps. . . small steps.

I shall pass through this world but once.
Any good therefore that I can do, or any kindness that I can show to
my fellow creature, let me do it now.
Let me not defer not neglect it,
for I shall not pass this way again!

To God, from whom all good things come, be the glory! : - )

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Longing for Long Hair

(It's emo time for me, guys! :-()

I am blessed and I'm thankful to the Almighty for all the good thing He has bestowed on me. The only regret I had is that I was not blessed with healthy looking beautiful hair. I have long been wanting to have silky smooth long hair since I was young and yet it still remained a wild dream until this very moment. Maybe it's in the genes because most of us in the family have thin and unhealthy looking hair. Nevertheless, despite the less hair I have now, I am still optimistic that someday or one day I will wake up with my dream hair on.

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